Darcy Maureen’s blog

What is your favorite scent or smell and why? 
Submitted by Nebraska Plates.

Gardenias.

Have you yourself ever smelt one? They are beautiful.

Here's one for the ladies:  What's in your handbag right now? 
Submitted by Kadeeae.

lets see... John Fantes 1933 Was A Bad Year, camera, fags, deodorant and some Ibuprofin 800. IM SO GIRLY

:) off to work all night, and hopefully this heat goes away so I can finish a book.

What are 10 things you want to say out loud but you can't? 
Submitted by alix.

#1 I love you

#2 What are we doing to ourselves: really what are you doing to me?

#3 I'm lonely; but am afraid saying it would make it real.

#4 I hate you for leaving

#5 I don't have an std, and I want to celebrate it... but know it would only be an asshole move

#6 You are NOT in control

#7 Why are you on your knees for her?

#8 I should hvae given you the attention I want to give now that its too late; but I know we will be together someday

#9 I hate that I'm attracted to you: the person who could hurt me the most and is very likely to.

#10 I'm jealous of you

I was thinking today... while I was riding passenger with my sister on the way home from visiting mother, "Yesterday" by The Beatles came on the radio. And its funny how music can be so nostalgic and bring back happy and painful memories. I remember how I would listent o that song and cry thinking about my relationship ending, and how if I only could go back to yesterday, when love was an easy game to play... And that made me want to make a list of songs that help me sulk while heart broken.... sappy. trust me I know. These are songs to listen to alone. And you can't explain to anyone how they made you feel that day you heard them while upset.

#1 "Yesterday" by The Beatles- explained above

#2 "All is Fair in Love" by Stevie Wonder- this songs makes me tear up to this day. My ex (whom I still love) told me that when we first broke up he would cry and listen to this song. breaks my heart everytime I hear it.

#3 "Everybody Plays the Fool" by Aaron Neville- Now, I know this is one of the cheesiest songs ever, but I was driving one afternoon, upset, and this song came on the radio... and I listened to the lyrics and it gave me hope and disappointment if the saying is true... "And now you cry, but when you do, next time around someone cries for you" Hope that I will find someone else who I will love just as much as the first, but that the person I next love will take my last position, and be the heart broken one.... just a thought.

#4"Love Ridden"by Fiona Apple- This songs really explains my entire hope for a relationship, only to find that I am alone.

#5 "River" by Joni Mitchell- this song alone can make me tear up and just want to be alone. I'll leave it at that.

Well, I wrote this on a whim, and you'll soon notice I can't finish what I start.. so I guess I will end this with the Fiona Apple lyrics that break my heart

"Love Ridden"

Love ridden, I've looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I've wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby, I wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over,
So I can't tonight, baby
No, not "baby" anymore - if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave
My hand won't hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I'm giving up on you
No, not "baby" anymore- if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave
No, not "baby" anymore- if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave

What talent do you most wish you had?

The talent I wish i could have would have to be : A beautiful singing voice. I love singing along to music, humming constantly, and I just think it might be nicer to actually entertain doing what I enjoy doing :) I don't think I would want to be a performer, or famours or anything silly like that... But the next time I'm with all my friends singing songs and drinking I would like to mesh in, with all of their great voices :) with confidence

bleh!

What's the next album you're looking forward to buying?

Simon and Garfunkal

any of their albums would be lovely. I bought the soundtrack to ''Almost Famous" a few months back at a thrift, and can't stop listening to "America"

love it :)

What have you changed your mind about? 
Submitted by chitoes.

Lets see, What have I changed my mind about....hmmmm

I'm constantly changing my mind about everything really. I've changed my mind that I am okay without someone else. I decided that in my mind I have the power to create my moods and stop dwelling on past issues. It really is you who decides how your day is going to go. You want to feel sad, because you are addicted to feeling that sensation for so long. And now

Now, thats not the sensation you want to be addicted to anymore. I strive to smile.

:):):)